The one I have before

I just realize this last night it is four years ago when we last met..and saying you again makes me miss the day that you are mine..

I may not the one for you and you may not the guy for me but still I am happy that once in my life you are mine..you are still my chinito boy.. my dao ming si.. that is what i used to call way back then.. but you change a lot by now.. with more mature in looks and the way you talk.. I may say keep it up.

I still love your sense of humor.. the one i misses so.. you are still there standing tall.. with your towering height that I really do love so.. But then again when I see you there still the spark just like old days.. and rewind everything back when I am just 18.. your hair may change a bit.. but your chinito eyes makes my heart beat 10 times faster than usual. ohh i almost collapse the moment you hold my hand again there still the warm that i felt in good all days..

but things are not the same by now.. you have your life and I do have mine to fix.. but hey still I am happy that once again I see you my naughty guy in blue.. :)

moving on..

It’s more than four years now since we met. But now we have to let go and move on. It’s not easy but this is what our destiny showed me. Having you for a long time is not enough and keeping you is hard and tough. As my teacher in high school always say’s there is no permanent in this world except change.

And setting you free is one of the changes in my life right now. I never expect we end up like this but life is a surprise so why compromise. You thought me what is love, but at the end you’ve given me undying pain. I know you have your new life and your happy enough, I may carry a liter of tears as of now but cheer up I can pick you out in this wounded heart of mine by time.

I’m taking my time for me to realize that life is more meaningful if living without you in my side. I may carry forever the symbol of our love before and cherish it forever more. I may be selfish but I don’t want to share it with you no more. Every morning I wake up in my new routine in life, it may new in my side but I can easily catch it up. Maybe one day I can see you again, I’ll make sure there is no pain.

Goodbye to you my great love and my great pain. I may not feel this love again but this is the time to let go and find a new love again…..

days goes by..

i never thought that i would live my life again without you. but i never count the days that i'm living again on my own.. there is only you and me, but no us..

life is a thief in the night in a minute you are mine but now you are gone. I used to have you here in my side but i guess i have to learn again to live by my self.

I'm hurting but that life should be there's is no easy way to mend a broken heart. but step by step and by day passed i will surely forget all about you and made me whole again..

I may hurting by now..but i'm strong enough to let you go and move on.. so be happy for hurting me but time may come i can face you and give you a smile and say " too lucky to let you go"